sometimes....

It has been quite sometimes since I write here, why? I don't know..To say that I m busy, I don't think so but maybe a bit lazy and bored with life and maybe I don't even know what to write..

Is there anybody that would read my boring blog...I m not a good writer..

Sometimes I think is it because I m fat now so that why i become lazy and not motivated..how can I get back  my figure and appreance that all this while has given me 1001 confindence.

I had once registered for a 'free trial' with a slimming center- London Weight Management but I keep postponing it until last Monday , 26 Apr 10 ...when I  decided to go for the trial..

Thinking back , the main reason why I dare to go is because of $$$$...I don't think that I can afford...

I know that I have to be more discipline to change..last time after having 4 kids, my weight is only 55-58kg..Look at the attached photo, it was way back in 2003 when i was 34 yrs old but now, my weight already reached 70.9kg...oh my god, what happen to me?..That is why I feel so ugly and not attractive at all.Last time,I feel so glamour like public figure but now ...OUT..DISGUSTING..BURN, MELT,RUBBISH...I got a lot of toxin and water inside my body..where does it come from I don't know.

After the 'trial session' at London Weight Management,I lost 1.8kg to 69.1kg...I m so happy..so fast result..it shows that if i really discipline and continue treatment at the slimming center and follow the guidelines, I can slim down to my ideal weight at 55kg within 2-3 months or if there is miracle, I can even go down to 50kg..Eeeee, I can't wait for the time to come. My only problem is MONEY...Money, money ,money....to join the program...pity me..I wish there is a way for me to find enough money ...How I wish....?????? Sugar daddy....opps..I don't think anyone would get interested on me anymore..


i need to organize my own diet..drink a lot of water, eating less rice but more fruits and vegetables....i will load in my new photo once I success get my ideal weight and figure..I 'll prove to my hubby that i m still attractive and pretty . I know he look down on me because I m jobless and fat.

Oh God, ALLAH SWT, I pray for my success and better life and future, may i become a millionaire, healthy, wealthy and successful person...amin!