comeback..after 4 1/2 tahun

Almost 4 1/2 tahun..lama juga tu. dont know why suddenly macam tak de semangat,idea nak tulis. banyak sangat perkara yang berlaku dalam tempoh ini..suka,duka, sedih dan pilu.yang pasti..dalam setiap perancangan yang dirancang..semuanya atas ketentuan Allah swt. inilah yang dikata kita merancang,Allah yang menentukan.

Anak kecilku pun dah sekolah darjah 1..katanya nak jadi seorang ustad. Jadi dihantar kesekolah agama dengan harapan termakbul impiannya..Anak dara yang sulung dan kedua dah bekerja dan masing-masing akan mendirikan rumahtangga insya ALLAH bulan Disember 2015 nanti. Anak lelaki ke3..dah bekerja, alhamdulillah dan yang ke4..Degree In Engineering di sebuah IPTA. Pendek kata, anak-anak kurniaan Allah swt telah diberi kejayaan dan keberkatan semoga terus menjadi anak-anak yang berjaya di dunia dan akhirat.

Banyak cabaran dan dugaan sepanjang mencapai semua pemberian Allah swt.Arwah bapa ku telah kembali ke rahmatullah pada Oktober 3, 2012 kerana sakit tua dan semenjak itu, kehidupan ku sekeluarga berubah sama sekali.

Aku telah mengambil tanggungjawab untuk menjaga ibu dikampung dan terpaksa berhenti kerja walaupun dalam masa yang sama financial aku sangat meruncing. Terpisah dengan anak-anak , mereka terpaksa hidup berdikari di Kuala Lumpur sedangkan aku di Ipoh menjaga ibu. Suami, hurmmm..macam chipsmore..kejap ada,kejap tak de. Adik beradik ramai tapi tak de seorang pun yang sanggup berkorban masa dan kerjaya mahupun keluarga demi menjaga seorang IBU.

Being with my mother, at begining sangat mencabar bahkan sehingga sekarang cabaran dari Allah swt sentiasa ada..KESABARAN. Ibu sangat sensitif dan aku pulak ...tegas so adalah pertelingkahan atau bertikam lidah dengan ibu kerana masing-masing nak menang.. AKU ..berdosanya aku kerana melawan dan menyakitkan hati ibu..selalu selepas bertekak, aku dan ibu tidak akan bertegur sapa hampir 2 3 hari tapi kini aku cuba untuk tidak bersikap demikian. Aku tetap cuba bersabar dan berdiam diri untuk tidak bertikam lidah dengan ibu..besarnya DOSA itu dan aku takut azabnya di akhirat nanti.

Alhamdulillah, kini aku telah banyak berubah..aku sentiasa memohon kepada Allah swt agar membuang semua sifat-sifat mazmumah dalam diri aku dan digantikan dengan sifat-sifat mazmudah yang baik. Aku mengasihani dan menyanyangi ibu lebih dari segala-galanya walaupun aku bersuami kerana suami aku tidak pernah ada diwaktu aku memerlukannya.

Perhubungan aku dan suami agak dingin kerana suami merasa terbeban dengan financial keluarga disebabkan aku tidak lagi bekerja. Bagi dia duit itu penting sehingga mengatasi rasa kasih sayang antara kami. Aku redha, kerana semua yang berlaku adalah ketentuan dari Allah swt dan pasti ada hikmah disebaliknya.

Bagaimanapun aku bersyukur kerana walaupun ketiadaan aku di sisi anak-anak, mereka berjaya menjaga diri dan menjadi insan yang berguna pada bangsa dan agama. Mereka tidak mengecewakan harapan aku.

Dalam tempoh menjaga ibu dikampung, aku mengambil kesempatan untuk menambah ilmu masakan dalam bakery. Aku mengambil kursus jangka pendek selama 6 bulan untuk menimba ilmu bakery & confectionery di mana aku berulang selama 6 bulan setiap hari dari Ipoh ke Sri Iskandar .. alhamdulillah , terpilih menjadi pelatih terbaik dan mendapat ilmu yang boleh diguna untuk menjana pendapatan disamping memberi ilmu kepada yang memerlukan..

Aku merancang untuk memberi ilmu baik dari segi resepi, petua-petua dan berkongsi cerita di dalam blog ini..aku pasti ada lagi insan lain diluar sana yang mempunyai cerita dan pengalaman yang boleh dikongsi dan menjadi iktibar kepada yang lain.

Intro yang mula-mula ni biarlah bercerita serba sikit tapi selepas ini, aku akan cuba berkongsi pengalaman dari segi karier, marketing, sales, bakery and confectionary, petua-petua dan tanam-tanaman terutama tanaman herba yang boleh membantu dalam kehidupan seharian. 

Chain of life @ rantai kehidupan melabuhkan tirai di sini dahulu..jumpa lagi..there's a lot to share.....

dream house

Yesterday was a rainy day...I told my kids that today I want to bring them to see our future dream house in Bangi. Everyone was so excited including my baby...

When we reached Bangi, everyone was so thrilled to see the future dream house that I have told them earlier...Oh god, ALLAH SWT, please make our dream come through...for the 1st time we all feel very
happy and excited to own the beautiful house..

I dont know how, but I promise to myself that I want to buy the house for my family, I want them to have a best house that none of us ever imagine before. I will do my best to own good income so that I can affort to buy our dream house....by 2013, June.

When look at all my kids, there is a guilt feeling for not working hard before to own big income...I know if I have work hard earlier and safe more, I would have bought our beautiful house so much earlier instead of renting  this apartment....

I wish Allah SWT will always give me guidance, strength, power, energy, good luck, good health and courage  to build my business to become SUCCESS and KNOWN in the market and industry. I want to be the best Consultant in Unit Trust and the best Agent in insurance and Islamic Estate Planning all the time.

Insyaallah....

Happy birthday!

Guess what, today is my birthday.but seriously deep down inside  I don't feel anything ..you know as a birthday girl, I should have some happy feeling but I feel blank.

Why? I don't know and I don't want to know. Perhaps if I could find something interesting later ,it can cheer up my day.. There are so many things in my mind..where to find, how to find, what to do, who else to target, when to do???? This question was in my mind since begining....

I want to be a 'millionaire' by end of this year and I want to be MDRT and MDP achiever for 2011. My target is to be Champion in Master Builder Award 2011. Can I do it? Yes, sure I can do it. Just give the best from me and do sales consistently with good monitoring in my daily task...

If Nadia Ismail can do it, why can't I?. I have to put more effort in this business coz this is my BUSINESS. I own this business and I will success in this business. Insyaallah....

Oh money, come to me easily, abundantly and continuously.....I am magnet to money. Money works for me all the time. Money, bring all your friend to me....

down...

it has been quite sometimes since I wrote in here.. i just not been a good time last few weeks for me. a challenge one after another until i felt that i m truly out of myself.

money and love

last time people use to say that money cannot buy love
but
nowadays, no money no love...

love is build from the sign of money because most of us are materialistic..
isn't it true????
u are part of it and so do I..

remember when u are getting married , those days u said that he/she is your life
but
what happened now...where's the love,,,,it was hardly there ...
why???
u asked yourself why???
isn't it all about money???

last time, when u wanted to start your life with your love one,
everything is under control
because
u never think of your 10 to 20 years future but
when your are here now
you realized that u have made a big mistake

MISTAKE for your whole life...why??
now only u know that love only cannot help u to raise your family,
cannot guarantee your leisure, your child education, your wealth and most of all your
HAPPINESS..

I know because I am in it now...

therefore don't just look for love because love can become sour but money...
u can become wealthy through the time....
another thing is ....your marriage can end because of no MONEY..

LOVE

Love is something that we cannot describe
Many said that love is blind but
it is not, it you that blind
u can choose who u want to love or what to love and when to love

Love is beautiful , yeah it's true but once u have it in your hand
sometimes u never appreciated it anymore
Love is sometimes u chase to have but you forget about it once u getting tired of it

Love is something that u have to honor because to get it
u need to sacrifice and earn to have it

but

what happen then is sometimes people just don't understand what LOVE is and
that is the reason why they just run away from it once they got NEW love...how could this happened
why u allow this, why u never learn from the past ....why,why,why???
normally, love is something hard to get but when u are feed up with it....it's easily to dump it
what will happen to the other party...is it fair...

is it fair for those that chase their love but never get it.....

MEMORIES

  

 A lots of things happen to us everyday

A lots of dreams for us to achieve

A lots of hearts was broken because of it

AND

A lots of time we missed IT

But the most important is that everytime we pass

through anythings, 

everythings became either sweet or sour memories

YES, the only things that we cannot skip

in live is living with our own memories

good or bad, it is there all the times

SO, face it, admit it and learn from it.

MEMORIES, things that we never plan to have or live without..